However weak and ineffectual my efforts may be, the one thing I do know is that I have a unique history. I've asked folks who should know if there is anyone else out there who used to be an "Egalitarian" involved with CBE who has repented and embraced God's good design for men and women - and, apparently, I am it*. Not any place I ever wanted to be and certainly not any place I believe myself equipped to be.
So, much as I would like to just fade away into oblivion and write a really bad mystery novel that sells approximately 7.3 copies, I don't think that's going to happen. And, much as I would prefer to never again type the words "heresy", "blasphemy" or "religious feminism", I don't think that's going to be possible.
So, if you think questioning my veracity or my reality (this "Kamilla" person, as one commenter recently put it) will embarrass me or shame me into silence, you can stop now. It won't work.
As for who is preventing me from commenting on Rachel Held Evans' blog, here is the only proof I have to offer:
*I know there are many other women out there who have forsaken feminism, religious and secular, I'm just talking about the specific experience with CBE.